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WoRLd Of OuR OwN~Today will be yesterday, tomorrow will be today, everything will be matured, so yesterday will be memory, life still on... 9月26日 Responsible...
Responsible. Do everyone understand what this word stand for?
I think everyone should understand and carry this word along no matter where u go and where you are especially when come to work.
In so sudden, my company account girl resign without any notice. The way she stopped is not stop with a letter but...just go and never come back.
Off handphone, and nobody can ever contact her. What the fuck...She just leave a mess to us who remain in this company including me !!
I know maybe she has her own problem, maybe my boss made her to do so, i dont know but at least u know u should be responsible to ur job,
you should resign nicely. Settle down your works your things, your mess before leaving us. Because she did so, everyday many phonecall coming in ask for payment. Everything stuck in this moment. No one know except her. What i can ans to the phone is that she's on leave. I am not sure about it. Sigh~
And until today, i think mess going to be clean up. My boss is doing something. So phone calls stop ringing that much today. And asking me to call some ppl to come in to collect payment too. But then, another prob coming up and dont know the cause. Sigh~ How a good company it is, when there's someone irresponsible to it, there's problem arise. Cheers~
9月22日 Puisee's Birthday
Hehe..guess what i planned for puisee's birthday present?? A huge huge teddy bear !! hehe...love it very much.
That night we went to Farmland Porridge Steamboat for dinner. The dinner was great with the side dishes ordered by fatty Kian Tatt.
I choose that place because i heard puisee said before the food there is nice. The price was ok. We took some photos there but all with Jullian's gf camera.
So i will upload it next time. Meiyee's aunt made a jelly for puisee as to replace cake. Because puisee said she duwan cake. So ok...i also dont plan to buy cake for her. But use jelly to be her cake. hahaha...she kept on duwan duwan duwan to blow the candle because she's older one year already lor.
Anyway...hope she really happy and love the pressie lor..hehe...cheers~ next...meiyee bday !!
Thoughts ^^
Come to another month of October !! Supposed to end my internship already rite? But i choose to continue my working life here in REservoir better than quit and sit at home doing nothing. I am for sure will looking for part time but no one knows what job i can find and how much i can earn. At least i guarantee a job here already. So i agreed with my boss to stay here for another one month until my class starts. After a month here, i am so tired. So so so tired. And i received another job to do before my class starts. A documentary shoot. I wish to do this. So i going to discuss with my boss that i want to stop end of this month.
Vince already went up to Cameron to work for the new local idol drama. I can feel he's damn boring there because he choose to sleep everyday waiting for the production crew to come back for him to start to work his part. So, he's only work at night for the one or 2 hours while the rest of the day, sleep and eat. After he went there, i am so damn miss him. Really do miss him alot. I guess because of i was already familiar that he stayed with me for the 2 months before this. That 2 months were really a happy precious moments for us. So cant wait for him to come back KL end of this month. After another one month he stay with me in PJ, then he will back to cheras. I should be ok that time, because class already start, and puisee move back to PJ stay with me. I tell u what, i really so scare of being alone and feel the boringness. I can always go out but i dont have money to do so. Sigh~
I went up Cameron to visit Vince last week. That 3 days were the happiest day for me since he went up to cameron. Closer to him, and closer to his colleague too. Suddenly, i being dragged by his colleague to be an extra talent in the drama shoot too. And because of the money that offered to me, at last i was agreed with it. Huhuhu...so ugly...haha...anyway...i got paint ici on my face...ok lah~~
Puisee's bday celebration on her bday eve day 19september. I can see she was very the happy when i brought out the huge teddy bear. BEcause of the huge teddy bear, a malu incident happened. Huhuhu...dont feel like want to talk bout that anymore. haha. Who was there will know what i mean. Anyway...as long as puisee happy ya~ miss ya !! muakss...
After 3 weeks of diet, i had lose 3kg !! i am so damn happy. Keep on ganbateh ya~~
Nothing interesting in this blog because its just all about myself. Just to express myself. Just to mark down my memories before i lost all this memories... ^^
8月21日 Another phase down...
Another few jobs done. ARghh...i am really so tired and exhausted now. Really really really so so so tired. Wish to have a long long long holiday. Luckily my internship going to end soon. Now that i dont like this job. Not that i wish to quit this job. I love this job very much but then it is very tiring to work nonstop everyday like that. Although when the job end, while waiting for another job, i dont need to work weekend. The weekend still not enough for me to get full rest and do what i wish to do. Hohohoho. Maybe i am just tamak den. :D anyway...i really love production. I know will continue this as my career after i graduates. And i know...i can be a good producer one day. But then..i really wish i can be a good freelance. I mean..work hard for in house first and then come out be a good freelancer. Means tat...i still need to exhausted and tired for few years before i can be a freelancer. Whats the difference? The difference is that...freelancer can choose job. And not that work 7days a week. When got no job can rest and do what you wan to do. Anyway...anyhow to say..production...memang no life. But i like it. So...no way to look down on it. Hope my hubby will understand. I know he will coz he's into post-production and also as like me ...no life too...see how long we both can stand in no life ob bah~ hehehe...
7月25日 Rescued DOGS & CATSI found this centre when i visited a pet shop in seks14 to buy cream for my hamsters. I am so sad to see those rescued animal. I believed that there are more in out there. For those who love dogs, if can afford to have another one, for those who already planned to adopt one, or even planned to buy one...please have a look in this.
they even got a webpage to buy dog/cat food online. They offer delivery to your doorstep too. Rm5 from the purchase will donated to those rescued animals. Please help for those who buy dog/cat food regularly. thanks...
PLEASE HELP THEM !!
GOOD JOB ^^Yess !! At last i am free relaxing in the office. Hope i wont so free for too long which means i dont hope this house no job also. haha. We just finish 4 jobs in a month !! The whole july month, everyday early morning work till late at night. EArlier...11sumthing can finish work...if not...the whole nite no need sleep at all. best~ haha. it was really so tiring and exhausted. But i did enjoyed it anyway. Coz i felt that...i am real, contented...and really working. Not too exhausted anyway. haha.
After the 1st job, al-jazeera children channel documentary shooting, next come to the 2nd... F&N tv commercial. This shooting was a brand new experience to me. Because we shoot in a studio. And this tv commercial will full of 3D graphic. I get to see how they shoot for the graphic. How they will put the graphic during the online post stage. So how they prepare for it in the green or blue mat. Amazing !! Its not that hard anyway. But come out...just that simple thing can turn out to be another way out. I was like...wow~ haha...rupa rupanya gitu. And this shooting..is only one day shooting...and only in the studio...which means...we dont need to change location and the most important is that..i dont need to carry the production box myself everywhere. haha...The talents of the F&N is great. They are real dancers. So i get to see their dancing in the tv commercial shoot...and of course know lots of new people. ^@^
3rd were the big shoot !! TV commercial for Ministry of Transport. This is a 3 days shoot plus one day still shoot. This consider a big shoot for me. Because it involve lots of people and full of facilities. When the first day i reached the location myself first...i saw lots of strangers (crew) which i dont know them at all. And 3 trucks, 1 lorry, 4 vans all together were there. OMG !! what a big...project. Maybe its not that big afterall but as for my experience i think its big ady. I saw new things in this shooting, i learnt alot, face many things (good or bad), felt lots of things ( happy and sad and of course mad) and know lots of people too. This tv commercial is for Ministry of Transport so for sure included accident scene. I got to see how they usually shoot for accident scene with the car banging or people banging. They use the dummy to replace the real person and get bang by the car. OMG !! it was so damn real !! when put in the computer to see the scene back...it was so damn real...i dont relaly realise it was a dummy if i am not there. haha. Good good. In this shoot, we need to find a therappy centre. We got no way to find it. And luckily thanks to chingyee...i got the contact for pantai rehab centre. And we got the chance to shoot there. !! omg omg...i was told that even location manager also hard to get it and i as an intern i can get the location for shooting. So...i was being praised for that. And during the shoot...it was so damn havoc at first. And i almost handling almost all the departments. Those related to me also in my business, those not related to me also in my business. Sigh~ so i was very busy in the whole shoot. Luckily thannks to Ismail...he helped me to sort things out. And fucked those ppl who was not doing their jobs and push responsibility on me. After that...things went better. He told me that..this things happened...because i was look like more reliable and responsible...so...whenever they got prob or questions they surely find me. haha. Good job. ^@^ anyway..i did a mistake also. My mistake which was only a small matter...but i made most of the ppl the kan cheung. And because of this...condition run uncontrollable. haha. So...because of my stupidity...i got scolded by my exec producer. kakaka..i am sorry. i admited i was wrong. So funny is that....before that...he kept on praise me for my good job...then at the end...asking me....but you know what your problem is? then only he start to scold me for that thing. hahaha...sorry chunson. ^@^
Ok...for another BHP shoot. I am not involved in it because i follow fully MOT. So...abit sad. But anyway,...i know i cant be so greedy to want it all. Anyway.... thanks reservoir bah~ hehe...after finish all the shoot. Tonite... there will be a wrap party !! in dont know which club yet...so...have fun lor !! cheers~ after that...back to work...be prepared for new job...hehe... ^^
7月4日 Friend = ??I just talked to a friend of mine. And i feel...something strange has happen now. I dont know why. I feel that...she's getting very strange or perhaps weird in her already. Whateva...stil the same meaning anyway. Sigh~ BEcause of some issues of mine...i talked to her...but then sudenly she pissed off because of nothing because of dont know what because of the "not her" issues. I dont know. Maybe its my fault that i should not brought out those issues to talk to her anyway, to discuss with her since none of her business also. But...i was just need someone to talk to. And she know all of us...i tot it was a good idea to talk to her bout it. But...i was wrong...totally wrong. I dont know is because that she cant handle listening to people issues or she cant handle advicing people or what. But its doesn't matter rite? i just need an ear to listen to me. But...sigh~ another issue come out. She said she's so annoy with those issues. She dont want to listen anymore and dont want to involve anymore. I was just...ermm...ok....so then...next time dont want to find u to talk to ady. If got any issues regarding that again...just keep it to myself and...be who i am myself. Yeah!~ maybe this is the way to make nothing will happen between us.
Sigh~ why i just so hard to find someone to talk to when i need to? Why whenever somone need me, i will be there. Why whenever someone want a listener, i be there? Even i also not really know how to advice and solve the problem but at least i am listening...but...its hard for me to find someone willing to listen to me patiently nowadays no matter close or not close to me. Sigh~ why? Even got...also far from me now. Sigh~ abit disappointed nia.
But ...what to do. Human nature. Cant change its fact and theory also.
I was trying my best to ajak her to hang out many times. But she cant make it. Sometimes it not that she cant make it. Sometimes she just dont want to. Hmm..maybe i am just a bad night worm. And not everyone can be like me. And i agree of that too. But i can try to adapt to another time ah. But she just not interested. Hmm...maybe she's just so such a good girl stick to her house. Hmm...maybe i should happy for this point. At least...her mum will be very happy got such daughter...Not alike me at all. haha. Sigh~ anyway...i am a busy person for now too...busy until i need to put down my family and friends. So...i guess...this is the sacrifice i need to made to build and grow my future passion....what to do...human life~ so i guess...from now on...no more ajaking ppl..just wait for other to ajak me. If i can, i join, if i cant...u all go ahead ya~ so...bear in mind of this...dont ever say that i never ajak u all... cheers~ simple life simple theory...
Addition point: maybe because of msn fault too. Because...sometimes hard to communicate with her in msn...yeah dats true....
Dinner aka SupperMeng: I told u before i will make my life here good no matter i happy or not. And now i am good and i am happy. Altho very tired. So...dont worry me ya. ^^
What to say about today? Yday...after i finish all of my work. 5pm. Suddenly...ta da~ stomach not feeling...whole body not feeling...head heavy heavy...and whole body hot hot too...and i felt like wan to vomit. Ok..maybe my stomach just got wind. So...i wanted to make a cup of milo. Half way walking...i cant...coz my whole body is not feeling well..i cant walk more...so i lying down on the sofa. Cannot...i cant sleep...so i walked in office and sit on the seat as like a potato. After a while...i cant tahan anymore! Adrian ! i want to do home... sob sob...
Back home...while driving i also very senfu ady. Vomit 3 times ady. Stomach started to pain. Reached home...luckily i got a fei lou to be my sand bag to put on my stomach to give high pressure on it. So that it wont that pain...and its work !! not that pain at night ady. After i slept for couple of hours too. Then, we went out for dinner...or maybe supper because its quite late ady...with doreen too. And...we went to Williams...and i order... PREMIUM...i dont know what is that !! Coz i heard from Alfred before...there's one in Williams...got many sausages in a plate one..got long...got short...got thick and small...maybe...coz i am not sure !! so i asked...and the guy duno say what what what...and i dont unds at all...what i can understand only...got chicken, kambing, sausages, duck, bacon and bla bla bla...in a plate...huh~ what is that? i dont know..okla ok la...OMG !! when the plate came...got...duck, chicken, sausages, bacon, ham, lamb chop, mash potatos, and cow....all the meats inside !!
omg omg...so big plate and i cant finish it...u imagine...cheong wai leng can eat so many one rite? but she cant finish this plate...u can imagine how big plate is that...haha. Then when the bill...come...omg...RM40 for just the PREMIUM. Yeah...PREMIUM....the price also PREMIUM...muahahhaha~ i think i will stop go there for bout half to one year ady. To cooling down my RM40 premium. Muahahha~ cheers~
And lastly one more thing... HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ENG KIAN SHEN lor~ wish to celebrate bday with him...but its hard for me...dont know what time finish work.. sigh~
7月2日 ProDucTioN ^^Sigh~ This is the 3rd entry because i lost my entries before. Arghh..ok nvm !! be patience. haha.
Now I am getting like and interested in production line. Although i am very tired, exhausted, sleepy, blur and ...dont know what word to describe anymore. Now i work 7days a week !! Morning 10 to 10.30am back to work...and back home at late at nite. If early mai go back at 11sumthing if late mai go back at 2sumthing lor. Anyway...i still like it because i feel that my life now is full and contented. No more boring and sien back home alone doing nothing waiting time to sleepy to sleep. But now...my office as like my office, and my room as like my hotel room. Because i everyday in office and back to home to sleep only. Haha. And i got thigns to do..i got stuff to do..altho sometimes i do feel boring and sien coz of nothing to do in office but still i got people to talk to. And when finish work...in very tired and sleey condition back home...and i can get into sleep...no more insomnia. Best~ But...since this month...vince stay at my house because of he's doing his intern in PJ also. And i always finish work late, and because of he just started...so can finish work on time. And he always waiting for me home every night...sob sob...Anyway...he understand one...hehe...
Last 2 weeks i joined an outdoor shooting. It was a 4 days drama documentary shooting for Al-Jazeera Children Channel. Its an islamic kids documentary. I believed that many of you do not know what is Al-Jazeera Children Channel because this channel is only broadcast in arab muslim country i guess which is not in Malaysia. So we work with oversea producer and director. It was a fun shooting though because i able to follow to that shooting which i never follow any real production before...and i get to learn alot, met new people, get along with them, and observe alot that i need to learn. Anyway...it was very the damn tiring and exhausted too.. as we wake up 4 ot 5 in the morning and back at middle at night for continuosly 4 days. This is just a small shooting though !! if in tvc...lagi....duno how to say..shoot one day kau tim...but one day 24 hours then. Muahahaha...best~ looking forward for it. This month got 5 tvc to shoot !! best~ So becuase this docu is just a small project and not much budget so not really hire lots of crews...one person do lots of job then. As for me, i for sure was the production assistant. And i also be transport and food manager. Hmm... of course i make mistakes, and i got forgiven for it and i learnt from there too...hopefully i able to improve and do a good job later...
I am very happy. As my producer aka my supervisor maybe...he praised me..and asked me to call him for job after i finish my study...And even...chunson (my exec producer) also asked me to call him for job after i finish my study !! altho...he's in drunk condition that time. Mauhahaha...Anyway...still happy because at least i get recognition from them...and i got the confident to go on my pathway. Hmm..oh yeah..we went clubbing together once with the exec producer, producers and etc. It was a great night though. We drink, we dance and we chat. And ta da~ they got shocked when saw that i can drink and dance (altho i dont think i am dancing but moving) too. haha...yeah...i am for who i am...but nobody can see who i am that i am totally different from my outlook then. Blek~ good acting huh? hehe...cheers~
6月21日 i Love you SIGNBOARD !!What i can say..i love you signboard. All of this time, i also cant recognize well the road where am i going and i dont know KL road even i'm consider a KL ppl. This is because when i want to go somewhere, surely there will be people around me, be with me, and direct the way for me. So i just where where where? and then..there there there...so tada~ i read where i wish to be already. Amazing rite? So i am fully depends on other people and not myself. So even when i wan to direct road..nobody really will trust my way...*yes you !! i know...u are laughing at me...coz i show the wrong road to you before* hehehe...
But...things got changed. Luck that as good as before anymore. I need to fully depends on ownself already. Come to work...come to intern especially in such production field, i need to use my car alot !! very alot !! haha..duno what word to describe the best so i just use ...very alot...when u lucky, somebody with u. When come to worse...and usually la...shud be alone~ coz not always got ppl accompany you. And if who those close to waileng...shud know waileng how well in knowing KL roads. How well in recognizing KL roads and etc. in Cantonese to say..LouChi.. --> JalanBodo. Haha.
But..BUT !! now...she's improving !! since she start to explore out herself...she gets to know the way easily. She gets to know how to find way easily. And for sure...no scare at all. Because if she scare, nobody can help too. Coz when someone explaining the trademark to her...she also dont know whats that. Kakakaka. So...just STOP !! ITS OK...i find the road myself. Huhuhuhu. So..she drove herself all the way find the road...if wrong...U TURN...go straight...wrong...UTURN ...turn turn turn and... bla bla bla..haha. And for sure...SIGNBOARD !! THANK U THANK U THANK U VERY MUCH... *sigh..relief..no worry* Why do i thanks to it so much in so sudden..because... in yday one day...i drove to...bukit utama, down to klcc from PJ (YES!! i dont know the way LAST TIME), back to TTDI from KLCC (YES !! I LAGI TAK TAU), and...to SRI HARTAMAS...nono..shud be DESA SRI HARTAMAS. and back to ttdi then...I was so proud of myself because i got the right way without really sesat jalan !! (altho still with few UTURN) kakaka *applause to miss cheong* ...blek~ yeah...with own instinct and of course signboard. hehehe...
So..guys...pls dont blame the roadsign anymore....coz BODOHJALAN like me also can...i know you also can...if u think u can..u can! :D
*this girl is too happy with her succeed in finding way back without get lost becuse she always get lost in nowhere before...so..just forgive her foolishness bah* blek~
6月19日 =.=Things just happen so sudden in this few days. Make me never happy before in this few days. I dont know what to do. I dont know what can i say. I am just can remain silent and speechless and keep everything in my heart. Sometimes hurt, sometimes piss off, sometimes confused...i am just...unclear with my condition right now.. i hate such things happen. I hate when things going unclear. I hate when i am unhappy. I know..no one wish to be unhappy right? I know...i shud forget it and let it be. But...sometimes thigns just hard to control you know? And seriously i cant control my emotion. SERIOUSLY I AM SERIOUS. Sigh~ I just hope there will be one...at least one ppl can understand me...can stand by my side and think for me. And of course...he will understand me too...i know he will..i know he will trying to...cheers~
6月17日 Reservoir ProductionHello hello~ quite some time never update here already. Its been 2 weeks internship here. And...hmm...quite free though because not much work to do yet. Anywya...i am helping in coming al-jazeera documentary shooting. The shooting will be on next week. Hmm..looking forward for it ! Hehe...so when there's nothing to do. So just checking my emails, friendster and facebook. So now i can say i'm an active facebook user though. Haha. 2000+ emails in my mailbpx already been clear ! Quite proud of it. haha. Hmm...can prove that how free am i in the office here. haha...
Anyway~ altho just 2 weeks...but quite get along with the colleagues and...learn alot of stuff bout production too. Although many of it i already knew it thru sch, but i realise that...what i learnt...its really important too. Not as some ppl said..what we learnt...wont be utilize gain in real field also. Its not fully true actually. Hmm...i can say...getting interested in production field. Hope i really can success in this field ya~ hehe....
Vince going to intern in Pj too...same roof company with where ej and edmond intern in. Hmm...i wonder if at first i choose to intern there how good. haha...but then i slap myself gain...cannot think this way !! i must have my own way to be...and now...i am happy with where i am. hehe. HEard many good thigns from my frens...and many bad things from my frenz about their intern too...sigh~ what i can say...not all ppl is that lucky then...just be patience...learn to be patience and adaptation power in real broadcasting line bah~ cheers~ ^@^ 6月1日 Another NEW semester !!!YAy~ another new semester begin. Year 3 Semester 1. Not study but working as intern trainee. Tomolo is my first day to step in real broadcasting field. Hope i can do my best ...hope i can do my job well !! hehe...I just got my last semester resualts. I can say it good. Becuase i never expected it to be dat way. At lesat no C at all. Although no A also but all B with some - and + too. CPA and CGPA improve ady. My route to make it reach 3.0 getting near and nearer. Thats why i am satisfied and happy with my results although not that very good.
There's one of my friends..not very happy with her results. Maybe not that not happy but not happy with it. Actually she is far way better than me. And also improve every aspect of her results too. But ...i dont know..maybe she expected higher but din get it. I just wan to say...dun always compare with each another. With own wish and needs fulfill then enough. Once it fulfill...wish for higher...and aim for it. Got it and aim higher gain and aim for it again. So that only will improve...be satisfied with own good while many others out there are worse more... i am happy this time because it is better than what i expected. If next time...*touch wood* i get worse more than what i expected or i wish for...i will be sad too..but for sure will ganbateh gain./..hope u will unds what i mean...cheers~ ^@^
5月26日 The Trips ^^Fuii~~ Just back from another trip. PD Camp! Its consider another trip bah because ...the first night...work as crew for the Oh Beh Gong camp. The 2nd night stay there for another night for own activities. This trip was very nice and memorable for me. Its consider the first camp for me. Although its not those type that outdoor camping but this is the first time trip with activities organize. Not bad not bad. Its actually about stageplay. So i learn alot about stageplay. And for sure know alot of new friends !! those crazy people. Hehe...
Last night was crazy though. 6sumthing in the evening drove down to Malacca from PD with puisee and carriene. Just 3 of us...duno any of the road. But we just try and error and we safe without going the wrong road to Malacca. Reached there already 8sumthing at night then met up with another gang of friends which newly knew from the PD camp. We had satay celup dinner together. Then we rushed to Eye on Melaka for photo shooting. I love the place very much. Not the eye on melaka but the decoration of the place and building around. And of course the building in Jalan Hang tuah at night !! very very nice...i love the lighting of the building and roads during at night. Its already 11.15pm !! we rushed to next stop which is the Jonker Walk. We take the last chance to walk the street because they close. Until 12am sharp, the street close. So then...we drove back to PD straightaway. Reached hotel also 2sumthing already. But then...still drink beer...before sleep. BEST~
Anyway...actually before this...just in the same week...on the monday...i just went to malacca with Vince. Haha. DRove to malacca for 2 times in a week a row. BEST. haha. Have a good time there. Spend a night in the 3 star Aldy Hotel...ehh..very comfortable leh. Not bad not bad...Love the Cendol !! the gula melaka !! really very different with other place. Cant walk jonker walk at night becayse the pasar malam only open during weekend. So just walk walk the street during the day. We had a visit to Mini Malaysia/Asean too !! Hmm...actually i quite like that palce. But that day...for sure not many people...so ...quite boring too. During the night...nothing to do...so drove the car round the malacca...so now...i know the way in malacca lor !! hehehehe....dats y i know the way when going with puisee....happy happy... sigh...after this...duno need to wait till when only can go for another trip lor...hehe...
Tomolo starts another week lu. Some people start intern. Some people start school. And for me...still in holiday...maybe got work for me to earn some money during this week. Hopefully. I'm totally broke. Then June will start my intern. Looking forward for it. Nite !!
5月22日 my NEW life~Okie...so this is the new me. The new Cheong Wai Leng. Its not that new character of me. But the new life of me i guess. My family had moved to Ipoh perak. And my sister is staying in kampar because of her new kampar utar. Well...left me and my brother live independently ourself in KL. Anyway...my brother in my aunt house in cheras and me still in PJ. So...easier to say...my family is separated 2 states. haha. Hmm...its not that bad anyway. My dad is running fruits business in Ipoh while my mum is helping him. I got a car with me in KL. So i can live freely here without struggling transport problem when come to my intern job matter. So of course i can drive back to ipoh anytime i wish to. Hope that i can use my money in petrol wisely so that i wont broke because of it although i'm already broke. Sigh~ Hmm...my family condition now...can say that...simple and easy. My dad business now is still new but still ok. All of us also trying to settle down in our new condition and try to adapt to it. I hope it wont be any problem to any of us and still be in good one... ^@^
BEsides that...hmm...i'm attached back. I mean...i am not single anymore. Hmm...who? Of course...him. The still him. During that 3 months period...we run through many things together. We run through many problems and hard times together too. Its give us the strength and the courage for us to start all over again. So far...we are still ok. I hope we really can make it. I know we can make it... :P
For my studies. For sure i can make it !! I pass for all of the subjects !! I never expect it. I dont need to take supp paper. haha...i was just so...excited. So my year 2 sem3 just ended. And 2 more weeks will start my new sem year 3 sem 1 which is my internship semester. I said about the company will go in for intern in previous post. Looking forward for it. As for Vince...he just finished his final year project production, and now...still udnergoing post-production stage. Hope it will be a great show after finish edit it...during the production...there are many circumstances occur...hope it will be another learning moments for all of us. Thanks ya all who helping out us for finish the short film... after finish already...surely will ajak u all to go for makan besar...ofcoz the director belanja lor..hehe...muaks~ take care ya...
4月24日 Light of HOPE !!Where is my light? Where is my light of hope? Sigh...the light at first shining me is getting dark and darker now. For the first subj, i am not doing well. Maybe i do really put not enough effort on it. Cannot !! I must be work more harder for the second subj and ofcourse the following subjects. I studied until 4am last night. Just because want to study more...want to understand more the subj paper today. I did it. I managed to study all what should i do. Study the matters that important to cover in today final paper. At least i got some of the confident towards today paper before exam today. But...just one point. I am so scare. I so scare that i will get disappointed. Because of the paper is not out as what i wish to be. Hmm...the paper is out. In front of me. Sigh~ It was not as good as what i wish or think for. I dont know how to do the essay questions. The calculation were weird. the objectives were unsure. Maybe its not the paper problem. Maybe it was just my problem. Am i work not enough hard? Or am i just too stupid to memorise it all? I understand it but i just cant do it. I just dont know how to do it. Sigh~ Useless is the word i can say on me now. USELESS !!! :(
4月23日 The Last StageYay~ at last come to this last stage of this semester. What? Final exam lor...Just passed the first subj yday. How was it? Sucked !! seriously. I tot i was ok yday. I can pass yday. But then...thanx to the ee..i knew i been tricked by the question !! I wrong for the 40% then. OMG !! I scare i cant pass for that paper. Yeah...its ok..supp only mah...sigh...another rm100 lor. Pray Pray Pray...now wait for tomolo paper ler...see how i die...not finish study yet...its the TOUGHEST for me i guess...
Hmm...bout industrial training...the last interview i went for. Reservoir Productions. WIth chinyan BC4. Its a TVC production house. I like it. Because it is a tough field i need to cope with. That is tv commercial production house. She said she will torture us. muahahha...i hope she will too...so that i wont boring till dead there. Anyway...as i understand...i will do lots of calling, faxing, emailling to make arrangement for casting talents, catering and confirmation of schedule for production. And of course reminding crews the production schedule. Make sure the equipments and props are ready for the office and on set use. Preparing pre-production documents for producers/directors. During on set...prepare myself to do anything i can. Especially be a production assistant...which means...BSBH...bau shan bau hoi !! hehe...hmm...pening right? Hmm..anyway... i like it...i know i can cope with the work..the stress...the fast pace of their process...but...i just scare i cant do the best for them on the spot. Anyway..i will try my best ya~ And chinyan..no worries ya..i know u surely can do it ^@^
For my this semester coursework...hmm..some is ok...some is not. Anyway...it's been over. No turning back anymore. So just looking forward for thefinal paper. Do well on it plus thecoursework marks...should be ok already. Advice to my friends...dont so "jap jeuk" on the small things which neglected the important things around you. You will be happier...person around you also will be happier... ^@^ maybe the marks is low for you...but for me...as long as we already tried our best...no matter what is the truth behind the story...we know we did the best...bravo enough ady !! So here i want to say...GOOD JOB for the ManHand production crews !! My loyal assignment groupmates !! My nice temporary assignment groupmates and also all of my helpers...you all know who i mean... :P
TAKE CARE LOR~~
4月3日 6am in the morningDo you all know about a song of Gwen Stefani 4am in the morning? haha..so here today my entry here is 6am in the morning...
Such early in the morning, not that i am just wake up but i not yet sleep at all. Sigh..i shud go and sleep now. Later 8am got lecture class. Most probably i will skip it as for my condition right now. I getting alike EJ, always skipping class nowadays. Luckily barred list out ady. Heard that there's another barred list out...hopefully its just a rumour. haha. Anyway...i am waiting time to pass till i guess it's the golden time for me to ring my friend up to seek for her/his help. Why? TO burn a dvd !! arghh.. my short film production. Been edited well and done. But..its already late for submission day and time too. Terribly late. And my tutor no more kind-hearted for my sympathy phone calls. Deduct marks on rite? But well..for her..deduct until left 10 marks for every single crew members. Wow~ what an interesting news. Yeah..thats for true. Means that...12 crew members' marks is on my hand. My editing was such a ....damn...and now...submission also having problems. Whats my problems actually? ARghh..pls..someone...or anybody...or anything can tell me...what's my problems? having problems since pre-production to production and also until now..post production stages. The circumstances just never stopped. God just like dont want me to submit my assignment successfully. And it makes me such a bad director, bad leader, bad dependent. OMG !! Its not my fault though. I already rush for it for few days continuosly ! I dint slept for 4 nights continuosly already. I think i am sick right now. Sigh~ But i got no choice...i just need to rush for it...but the problems never stop following me..makes me breathless...hopeless and helpless too...sigh~
anyway...its done! its over! its a regretful for me! and...no more turning back... *another regret for me in my 22 age of years*\
Oh yeah..bout my intern...i cant get tayangan unggul. Because of they just need to choose 2 from 15 of us. So i am the one who din get it. Anyway...i got the chance being chosen by Mr Teh to go for interview in Reservoir. Its the tv commercials production house. I am very happy for it. BEcause its my aim to join tvc production house. Although its a fact that, work in tvc production house is just a suffered for me and i am willing to work on it. I never afraid of it. As long as i am interested on it. So here i am looking forward for the interview and i hope i can get it. BEcause i received comments from the experienced ppl, Reservoir is a quite good company and quite popular for tvc production house too. So..wish me good luck bah~ 3月27日 I'm OKTime pass by. And i know...and i can feel...and i can say that...i'm OK now. No more terribly emo as like last time ady. Why? I think thanks to the time then. We still are friends. Close close friend i can say. We still meeting each other and hanging out with each other. Its nice though. Anyway...its not mean that i ady fong hei. I am just give the times to prove to us if we stillc an get back together or not. Just...let it be...and time will tell us the truth. So now...we are OK. ^@^
Went for intern interview today. With ahlai, jia vern and jenny. We went to tayangan unggul which is under Astro. Its consider top malay production house. BEfore interview, we were so stressed because we waited for the interview together with another around 10ppl. from limkokwing and upm also. Tot we got no chance. But after we went in for interview, the session was nice. I mean nice and friendly cnversation. Talking to the En.Atan the line producer makes me no fear or stress in interview session. And seems like got the hope or chance they will take me or perhaps 4 of us. Just waiting for call. But then...after went back to sch, met my advisor Mr. Teddy Beh...he asked us not to put high hope...as that entertainment field ppl...fake almost all the time...and hmm...duno...so...then...no more further thinking bout it anymore. So what i can say now is wait...wait and wait... ^@^ Wish me good luck ya~
3月23日 Back to reality...Yes !! Cheong Wai Leng !! You should back to reality. No !! Is that you must come back to reality. Reality is such a way. Yin sat. u know whats that? Human is yin sat. When i am not her anymore, and you think no friend anymore. Isn't is must to be that way? I dont know. I am not sure. But i am feel that...so so hurt. When i meet u guys...i tot i can be who i am now to get to know all of u which i know before. But~ No..its not. U all are so different to me. So..cold to me. As like i'm strangers to you. Whats the matter actually? I dont know. Isit i'm the one who did wrong to him and u all put the blame on me? If yes...just let me know the problems and i say sorry? You all just liars and fake. Talk to me in behind different way and come to infront of me different way. Maybe from the beginning till the end...no one in front of me is true enough actually. Yeah...human is like that. So..i must back to reality now. No more good dreams. I should not dream anyway.
Since Puisee went to MAcau, left me alone here. I need company. And thanks to ej and gangz to try their best to not to leave me alone. And thanks to him for the 2 nights so that i wont sleep alone. And of course thanx to my teachers that give us lots of works so that i dont need to boring alone. haha. Anyway...now..today...right in the moment. Thanx to the time to bring me back to the reality...where i can see the truth of the world is. And nothing is that perfect as we wish to. Nothing can run that smooth as what we wish to. Nothing can be happen as how we wan it to. BEcause everything in this world also need 2 sides. 2 sides of heart. And now...i only got one heart of mine ....and i cant see the opposite hearts anymore...maybe got...but...unknown and unsure...END OF DREAMS
3月19日 ALONE & LONELYWhat is ALONE? alone is...alone is one person here and no one is here for me. What is LONELY? Lonely is...the feeling of being one person where got no one here for me. The loneliness feeling. you know? well..dont know how to explain it. I just know that...i feel so so so lonely here. Sigh~ today after class, puisee straight back cheras. Because she will fly to Macau tonight until next weds only back to sch. Which means..i will be alone here in pj all of myself until next wednesday. If for last time, no prob for me. Because i still got him to pui me. But now...no more. I am just alone by myself. I need to bear my problems myself. I know i can do it. But right now...i just feel that..i'm totally broke down. Nothing on me...can going smoothly. Nothing. I guess i had gone through it few days back. I am ok with it..i had get over him. But then...until last night many questions sudenly popped out in my mind. Make me emo emo emo. arghh~~ rushing work till 6am. And now...puisee went back. Left me alone in this house. Sigh~ LAgi emo. Sigh~ i also wish i can live my days happily...but...its really hard for me. Well..easier to say but hard to do. You should unds this.
ARghh~ at first date with ej to go clubbing. But then...because of assignment...so...cancelled it. At first thought only go for UM showcase...but then cause of assignments too, cancelled it. Best~ arghhh !! I wan alchohol !! i wan minum minum !!
All i want for tonight just a companion...pls... *_*
3月15日 Miracle...Miracle !! I can say what happened today was a miracle !! hehe...last few days ...i have been emo seriously. Because of ? for sure because of him...
Because i felt that we got no more chance at all..so i'm emo seriously. Sigh~ So..movies everynight to ease my stubbornness. Until today..ok..in positive thinking.
TO LET GO. But then...after went out with him today...he seems like...hmm...what i can say...we seems like got chance get back together. So..this what i mean miracle !! Maybe for u all..its just nothing...so what? And not that real enough. But this already enough to ease my pain. And now..i do really feel miracle around me. ^@^
Cheers~ 3月12日 Time pass...Hmm...i'm ok ady. No cry ady. Friends around dont need to worry me ya~
i promise i will take care myself good good de. Hmm...for sure sometimes will emo abit ah.
Anyway...i'm in some strategy now. ngek ngek ngek. Hope i can do it. To win him back !! huhuhu...
Meet him yday. BEcause ask him for some help. And i can see...hmm...he's diff to me alraedy.
Anyway...our relationship still so unclear. Really dont know use which word to describe us. Sigh~
Good luck to me den....No worry!! ^@^
Altho i always emo bout him..i still will study hard in my study !! now nth is more important than my study.
3月7日 EMO-NESSHalo..i am back. And i guess many ppl who get around me can see how emo max am i dis lately. Yeah...i been emo for 2 weeks ady i guess. Sigh~
Anywya...just wanna update bout myself here for those who really read my blog to know more bout me. Last entries said bout my bday celebration. I was wrong. I got bunch of buddies and best friends give me a suprise dinner for my bday. And ofcoz my hubby with his gang too. Receive some nice presents too ofcoz. Thanx u all alot. Besides that, thanx to Tan Jia Vern, i been announced in the lecture hall bout my bday and sang me a bday song together. Thanx to ya bangau! then...my crew mates prepare a suprise cake for me. And also my hsemates drag me to singk because of wana suprise me with their cakes. But then...haha..some funny things happen. Not good to mention here. Thanx to u all. Really !!
But then, after my bday. everything changed. Family having problems. NOTICE TO WHOM KNOW WHERE DO I LIVE --> I ALREADY SHIFT TO PANDAN INDAH KENARI COURT. Just opposite to Cempaka Lrt Station. Who always go cempaka lrt station for sure will pass up. Then...my studies...like shit...3 midterm failed. Never study at all. Cant blame anything. Just to blame too many assignments and hardly plan well for it. Yeah...And lastly...
I"M HERE TO ANNOUNCED THAT I"M SINGLE MODE NOW. Means...i broke up with vince ady. Means...no more hubby in my dictionary. haha. anyway...
i will call myself as SINGLE BUT UNAVAILABLE. because...i'm still waiting for the miracle happens...haha...time will changed...hopefully...
Am i ok? Nope i am not ok. I had try my best to be ok this weeks. since 28feb till now. At last, last night broke down. Been to MAison clubbing with some of my best frenz with my coursemates. Thanx to them to bring me there to relax. But then...worst things that...I get drunk. Totally DRUNK. Plus crying nonstoply. and need to mafan 2 lady Puisee and Tsueywenn to bring me out. Pity them. Why? Coz i raelly totally cant walk myself and i cant see the things infront of me. Sigh~ Because of my stubbornness...i made 3 of my girlfriends cried together with me. So so so sorry. I promise i will never be that way again. BEcause of my stubbornness, i made vince so stress on that night as there's some obstacles he need to face. And because of my stubbornness, at last we get to meet up today. He came all the way to pj here to see me. But at last...his answer still the same...be friends better than couple. So what to do? Respect and Accept. This term really impress me in this few weeks.
Said about this 2 years relationship. Argue almost all the time. But nothing regret us. Because we do really love and appreciate each other. But I am so regret with my stubbornness. because of my mistakes, he get exhausted. Really so tired and dont wish to get attached anymore. Even he's still like me. So...means that now...he need time to breath. He do really need time. To get back the 2 time of feeling of wanna get attached. So then, thats the time...miracle happens. haha...anywya...
hubby...I am so sorry. I do wish i can call u hubby once again in no longer time...
And now...my girls + buddies...dont leave me alone !! I dont want to be alone. So if there's any activities. Just let me know!!
CHEERS~ 2月18日 Messy Life~Its quite some time i never update blog ady. Since i had started my this semester. Damn hectic. No time and mood to do so at all. Until now..i am so frustrated thats why end up blogging here. Coz at this moment right now, i really dont know what to do. Just wish for more time granted for me. Nothing can buy time but i wish to miracle happens...give me more time. sigh~ Family, relationship, friends, study, finance, all what can i say...all having problems...what else can i say? Nothing can i say...
Bday coming soon. How can i celebrate it? No hope on it. Guess just dinner. And spend most of the time rushing works. No hope for a real celebration. Reason? Who is close to me will know bout it. muahaha. No point to point it out here. Anyway...i really hope there's something can trigger my life now..what? i dont know... :(
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